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Through His Eyes

The old feeling of panic rose up in my chest and I felt the wall going up in my heart. I could feel the moment I withdrew emotionally and my heart hardened like a stone. I was having a conversation with someone I love deeply and what they were saying to me was totally innocent. They were completely unaware of what was going on inside me.

Really, Lord? Am I really doing this again? I thought I was done with this reaction. I thought I had dealt with my rejection from the past. So why am I having the same old reaction based on the same old lies? I thought I had broken free from this mess a long time ago!

The same two thoughts keep rearing their ugly heads (at the worst possible moments):

You will never be enough.
There is no place for you to belong.

Can anyone else relate?

I was seeing myself through the eyes of hurt and rejection from my past, and lies planted by the enemy. God gently spoke to my heart and said, “What if you could see yourself through My eyes?”

What if I could? What would I see?

I keep forgetting that God sees me in a different way than I see myself (thank goodness!). His grace and love is beyond what I can comprehend. It is holy and pure and different than any love we can understand.

Apparently, God wanted me to take a refresher course on His love for me and my identity in Him.

A quote from Sheila Walsh came to my mind: “You have never lived an unloved day in your entire life.” Do I really believe this is true? Am I living like I believe this is true every day?

I have learned that sometimes the road to true freedom in Christ is a process. Beth Moore would say that it’s a process because God wants you to fall in love with the Healer along the way. Jesus can set you free immediately from a stronghold, but learning to live it out in daily victory can often be a process.

And so, I went digging (again) for truth in God’s Word. And I praise God for breathing a fresh reminder into my spirit. I hope it encourages you as well:

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation…2 Corinthians 5:1718

When the old habits rear their ugly heads, Jesus’ blood covers us. We are saved by grace, not by our performance. We are a new creation. The old is replaced with a new life in Christ.

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. - 1 Peter 2:9 (emphasis mine)

Because we are his children, we are royalty now. His blood flows through our veins.

We belong to God. The word belong is such a great word. We so often feel that we don’t belong. But in Jesus, we DO belong. Always.

We love because he first loved us. - 1 John 4:19

Our relationship with Jesus and our love for him should precede anything we do. We must fully receive his love for us before we can love others well or do anything to impact them for Jesus.

When we understand his love for us, and our inheritance and position as a child of God, we will have the courage to step into the calling and mission he has for each of us.

Now if we are children, then we are heirs - heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. - Romans 8:17

We are co-heirs with Christ. Crazy, but amazingly true.

You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit - fruit that will last…John 15:16

God chooses us. He continues to choose us every day.

I love this verse in the KJV: To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved. - Ephesians 1:6

Chosen. Accepted. Beloved. Daughter. Son. New creation. Forgiven. Redeemed. Princess. Beautiful.

What words come to mind specifically when you think of describing your identity in Christ? My mentor and dear friend had a group of women do an exercise recently. She asked us to write an identity statement (identity in Christ) using only six words. It felt hard for a moment and then the words came quickly for me:

Chosen and beautiful Daughter who belongs.

My ten-year-old daughter was with me and this is what she wrote:

Child of God, courageous, chosen, joyful.

What would your six words be?

If you don’t have a clue, ask God to show you.

Have you looked at yourself through God’s eyes recently? I was so thankful for getting to let God’s Word reset my thinking…for getting to look at fresh truth about who I am, because of Jesus.

I heard a song by Britt Nicole recently that I wanted to share. It seems to fit perfectly...

Click the picture below to hear the song, “Through Your Eyes,” by Britt Nicole:

Lord, when we jump into a pit and our old pattern of thinking rises up, would you remind us of our identities in You? Would you give us a glimpse of ourselves through your eyes? Amen.

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If you are an imperfect wife, mom, daughter, or friend, struggling to stay focused on God in the craziness and find joy in the heartache, then we have something in common. I am a recovering perfectionist and daughter of the King, slowly learning to fully trust the One who sees me just as I am, and is already pleased. I’m so glad you are here.

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