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Our Sanity Glue

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. – Psalm 23:1-3

As I was holding my three-year-old over the sink as she was vomiting, I had the familiar pang of feeling like I was drowning in the chaos sweep over me. Lord, it’s too much. I’m so tired. I don’t have enough energy to finish this day, to be everything everyone in my family needs. I had been looking so forward to going to bed, and now I wasn’t sure if I would get to go to bed tonight since my daughter was vomiting. I also thought about the fact that I had missed my quiet time with God that morning (because my two toddlers had woken up so early). A pang of regret and despair filled me.

I looked around at dishes piled high in the sink (that my daughter was puking in), my one year old crying for attention and a snack, my three older kids chasing each other and running through the house screaming, and my husband’s weary eyes from across the room. Tears filled my eyes, and a bit of panic filled my heart.

My daughter throwing up was the final straw. The little bit of margin I had left was quickly used up and I felt so defeated.

And then a Bible verse came to mind like a breath of fresh air, whispered quietly to the deepest places of my tired heart.

“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.” (1)

And then another verse came to mind...and another one.

The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. (2)

God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. (3)

And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus. (4)

In Jesus, I lack nothing. He is my fortress. He is light, and He lights my way. God will give me everything I need for every moment. He is always with me, even (and especially) in the daily struggles and the mundane moments.

I let those truths hit me. I went over them again and again in my mind until the despair and discouragement lifted enough that I was able to do what needed to be done, which was clean my daughter up and comfort her.

Several days later, as I was processing those difficult moments, I had some encouraging thoughts.

Moms are going to miss their quiet time. Regularly. But it’s okay if we have God’s Word hidden in our hearts.

It has really hit me lately how important it is to know and love and memorize the Word of God. It is life and truth to our weary souls. And when we miss those times of refreshment with God because of life’s interruptions (translated: our children), having His Word in our hearts will be our anchor. Truth wards off the lies we so easily believe when we are exhausted.

God’s Word is the glue that holds our sanity together.

God loves our desire to look to Him, to call on Him in our times of greatest need. I believe it is our gift to Him. I found this little gem of a verse recently and I love it:

For if the willingness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what he does not have. – 2 Corinthians 8:12

We give God what we have at the moment, even our worst moments. And if it is sincere and from our hearts, I believe He will bless it.

I saw this Facebook post (from Friday, October 17th, 2014) by Lisa-Jo Baker and I wanted to share part of it because it encouraged me so much:

God is comfortable in my chaos.
God is waiting for me at the end of the day.
God holds me. God loves me. God welcomes me into His arms.
God is awake when I go to bed tonight. 
God is waiting when I wake up tomorrow.
Ready. Delighted. Friend.
– Lisa-Jo Baker

I love that.

I just wanted to encourage weary moms (and weary women in general) to memorize God’s Word. Ask Him to give you a powerful love and hunger for it that will never get satisfied. Then, when trials and interruptions come (and they will come often), you can cry out to God, in those out-of-control moments, and ask Him to flood your heart and mind with His strength-giving Word. I promise you (and more importantly, He promises you!) it will carry you through.

…he (or she) persevered because he (or she) saw him who is invisible. – Hebrews 11:27

Truly my soul finds rest in God; my salvation comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. – Psalm 62:1-2

For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. – Hebrews 4:12

Lord, Your Word is so precious to us and we praise You for giving it to us. Give us an passionate love for it and a desire to memorize it. And when the hard moments come, bring your Word to our minds and our hearts and encourage us to hang on to You. When we feel weary and empty, fill us with you and Your Word, Jesus. Thank you for being our sanity glue. Amen.

References:
(1) – Psalm 23:1
(2) – Psalm 46:7
(3) – 1 John 1:5
(4) – Philippians 4:19

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If you are an imperfect wife, mom, daughter, or friend, struggling to stay focused on God in the craziness and find joy in the heartache, then we have something in common. I am a recovering perfectionist and daughter of the King, slowly learning to fully trust the One who sees me just as I am, and is already pleased. I’m so glad you are here.

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